Monday, October 11, 2010

Evie's 11 months!

Where does the time go? Seriously.

I cannot believe that, in less than a month, my baby girl will be 1 year old! ::bawls like a baby::

It seriously feels like yesterday was my due date, I was standing in the bathroom, drying my hair, getting ready to go over to Brian's parents' house to watch the Steelers game, and my water broke. I looked at him and said, "Uh...I think my water just broke." He said, "Are you serious?" 16 hours later, she was here, and I cannot imagine my life without her.

I took her to get her 1 year portraits done last week. Here are my favorite pics...

Sunday, August 1, 2010


Here are some pics of the house!

As you can see, it's really sunny today and I was talking the pics with my iPhone, so they're not the best. Also, I haven't put a lot of decorations on the wall yet because there's still some painting that needs to be done.


Dining Room

Living Room




Guest Bathroom/Evie's Bathroom

Evie's Room 

Master Bedroom

Master Bath

Walk-In Closet (pre-moving day, obviously)

Laundry room

Basement (couch has been swapped out since this pic was taken)

Guest Room (there's a bed in there now, but the room wasn't clean enough to take pics lol)


Friday, July 9, 2010

Dropping Like Flys

So I've lost 3 followers in the past few days.

I'm going to take a guess and say it's because I'm not updating very often.

We've been so busy with the move, working, taking care of a baby. I just haven't had time to update.

Can you ever forgive me?

Update on Evie: She's crawling now and it looks like she'll be pulling up any day now! I'm so excited and sad at the same time. It's only been 8 months! How can she be crawling??

She's also said the precious word I've longed to hear, "Ma ma." Of course she doesn't know what it means, but it's still a victory over "da da" adorable!

Update on me and Brian: Things are going well. We're going to counseling, but haven't been in a few weeks due to cancellations by the counselor and us for the last 2 appointments. We'll be back in that office on Tuesday though.

We're working on our communication, and of course, he's working on his stress management skills and learning to control his anxiety.

I'm happy to say, things are looking up. We're nowhere near fixed or cured, and I'm not expecting to ever be perfect, but we're headed in the right direction.

I think I'm going to take a cue from Blair and try the Dirty Day Shred, so I'm sure you all will be anticipating that with great eagerness.

I'll be posting pictures of the house soon too! We're going to be doing a little painting, so I'll post before and after pics.

Thursday, June 3, 2010

We're Moving!

I know I haven't updated in awhile. Life has been crazy!

Things with Brian are slowly, but surely, getting better. We're going to counseling once a week and we're both really trying to make an effort to communicate better. We've come to the realization that communication, and anxiety, are our biggest issues. Brian and I are both strong-willed, hard-headed people. When you get 2 people like that lord, is it a recipe for disaster! Luckily, we realize that we do love each other and we're willing to do what it takes to make this relationship work. I'm praying that we can get over this hurdle.

Things with Evie are better than ever! She's the happiest little baby in the world! No, seriously. I've never seen a happier baby than my baby. Maybe I'm biased (ya think?), but that girl is all smiles all the time and it melts my little heart.

I'm sure you're wondering what the title of this post means.'s pretty literal. We're moving into a house. Insert a "Woo hoo!" here. We're packed to the gills in our townhouse and I'm so tired of having to try and conceal swings, exesaucers, car seats, and much, much more when company comes over. In our new house we'll have, drum roll please, AN ENTIRE ROOM dedicated to the Evie Monster's toys! I cannot wait!

Here's a pic of the house...

Our friends who live in Hawaii, that we visited a few months ago, are renting us the house. The husband was offered a permanent position to stay in Hawaii, and he happily excepted (bastards!) and they immediately thought of us to rent their house. I'm beyond excited! It's a 4 bedroom, 3 bath home, and I cannot wait to acquire every inch of that space.

Now we just have to get our townhouse rented out. Wish me luck!

Monday, May 10, 2010

6 months

It's been 6 months since my little girl made her way into this world. The day that changed my life forever. I never knew how much I could love one tiny little person. A love so strong that, in my the midst of my crumbling world, it's all I need to know in my heart that I will always be ok. I will always be strong for my baby.

This 6 month old has taught me so much about myself in such a short amount of time. I can't wait to see what I learn in the next 5 years. 10 years. 20 years. If 20 years goes by as quickly as the last 6 months...well let's just say, I'm in no rush to get to 42!

Here are the rest of her 6 month portraits. As promised.

I know that's a lot of pics, but I had to AW my little cutie!

Sunday, May 9, 2010

Mother's Day

It's so crazy to think that this is my first Mother's Day and Evie will be 6 months old tomorrow!

Brian and I aren't doing very well, but seeing that little girl's face let's me know that everything will work out whether we're together or not.

Brian's mom and I took Evie to get her 6 month portraits done. I'll post them all tomorrow, but here's a little preview...

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

Strolling down memory lane.

Wanna see what I looked like as a kid?

Friday, April 16, 2010 hard.

I know I've been MIA for the past week or so, and it makes me sad. I miss my fellow internet addicts mommy bloggers, my tweeps, and my bumpies, but my life isn't going too well right now. Scratch that. My relationship isn't going too well right now.

I'm so mentally exhausted and emotionally drained. I'm just going through the motions of daily life, with the occasional fake smile plastered across my face. Every time I laugh, I feel a twinge of sadness and think, "WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING? Your life is falling apart in front of your eyes, and you're laughing?"

Half of me wants to try to work it out, while the other half screams, "Run!" Which half do I listen to?

We're starting couples counseling on Tuesday. Wish me luck...

Sunday, April 4, 2010

Happy Easter!

Wishing you all a happy Easter Sunday!

Monday, March 29, 2010

Hi, I'm Jocelyn, and I'm a terrible housewife

When I was in high school, I used to watch Sex and the City and fantasize about how, some day, I would be just like Charlotte York. She was perfect in every way. Beautiful, successful, rich, but more than anything, she was the perfect housewife.

I used to imagine my life when I was married with kids. I would be JUST like that. Perfectly put together, pearls and all, keeping an immaculate house, dinner on the table when my husband got home, all while raising babies. Yes, for a woman my age, this is a very old fashioned way of thinking, but it's what I wanted.

Today, I'm a 22 year old stay-at-home mom, and if you came over to my house right now, right this very second, you would probably be appalled by what you would see. My coffee table has 3 glasses and 2 baby bottles on it, my foyer table has a screwdriver sitting on top (because we have to change the damn swing batteries every day), my giant sectional sofa is covered by 2, equally giant, comforters (because we have to sleep downstairs most nights because the babe doesn't sleep the whole night in her crib). What else? Oh, let's see, the kitchen is a mess. Dishwasher full, causing dishes to pile up in the sink, floors desperately need to be swept. And don't even get me started on the upstairs. Our bedroom is a disaster area. When I look at it, I want to cry.

And you know what the problem is? I blame Brian because I really do try to keep this place clean, but he does nothing to help me keep it clean. I cleaned the entire downstairs on Saturday. Complete with vacuuming, which doesn't happen as often as it should in this house, but it didn't matter. Come Monday, it's a complete and utter mess, like it is every Monday. But the real problem, the reason why this place is never clean for very long, is me.

It's my fault that Evie doesn't sleep in her crib, causing me to not be able to make a noise when she's napping, in the living room, in her swing. When she is awake, she has to constantly be held or paid attention to. She's not content with just playing by herself and watching me clean. When I do, FINALLY, get her to sleep, I can't so much as get a glass of water for fear that the ice clinking in my glass will wake her. As I sit here typing this, I'm trying not to tap the keys too loud, because when I do, she stirs.

So I sit here. I sit here, on the computer, just waiting for her to wake up so we can start the cycle all over again. And just thinking about it, makes me want to breakdown into tears. This is not the kind of housewife I pictured myself being. I want a clean house, I want to cook, I want a baby who sleeps in her own crib, giving Mommy and Daddy their, much needed, alone time in the evenings.

What can I do though? I can't make her become a more independent baby. I can't force her to sleep in her crib all night. And if I can't handle doing household chores with one baby, how the hell am I supposed to do it with 2? Or 3? Or 4? I shudder at the thought of it.

For now, all I can do is try my best. I try not to think about the characters I idolized on TV. Because the fact is, it IS just a tv show. The Charlotte Yorks and Bree Vandekamps are just fictional characters. At least that's what I tell myself, but a little piece of me knows...women like that are out there, being great housewives, and that's the little piece that makes me feel like a failure as a wife and mother.

Sunday, March 21, 2010

Giveaway: Blog Design

And the winner is...

Congrats, Jess! You're the winner! The next step is to go to my website and follow the Design Process steps. :)

To those who entered, but didn't win, I'm thinking about doing this as a monthly giveaway, so be sure to check back!


In honor of starting my new blog designing business, Blogs by Jocelyn, I've decided to giveaway a free custom blog design.

You can click here to check out the kits that will be available to pick from if you win the design.

How to enter:
**You must be a follower of my blog to enter this giveaway**
**Make sure you leave a separate comment for each entry**

1. Vote for my personal blog on Top Mommy Blogs by clicking here.

2. Vote for my design business blog on Top Mommy Blogs by clicking here.

3. Follow me on Twitter.  

4. Add my blog button to your blog.

5. Blog about this giveaway and copy/paste the link in your entry.

You have until 9:00 am on Tuesday to enter. On Tuesday, I will use to pick a winner. Good luck! :)