Dropping Like Flys

So I've lost 3 followers in the past few days.

I'm going to take a guess and say it's because I'm not updating very often.

We've been so busy with the move, working, taking care of a baby. I just haven't had time to update.

Can you ever forgive me?

Update on Evie: She's crawling now and it looks like she'll be pulling up any day now! I'm so excited and sad at the same time. It's only been 8 months! How can she be crawling??

She's also said the precious word I've longed to hear, "Ma ma." Of course she doesn't know what it means, but it's still a victory over "da da" adorable!

Update on me and Brian: Things are going well. We're going to counseling, but haven't been in a few weeks due to cancellations by the counselor and us for the last 2 appointments. We'll be back in that office on Tuesday though.

We're working on our communication, and of course, he's working on his stress management skills and learning to control his anxiety.

I'm happy to say, things are looking up. We're nowhere near fixed or cured, and I'm not expecting to ever be perfect, but we're headed in the right direction.

I think I'm going to take a cue from Blair and try the Dirty Day Shred, so I'm sure you all will be anticipating that with great eagerness.

I'll be posting pictures of the house soon too! We're going to be doing a little painting, so I'll post before and after pics.

We're Moving!

I know I haven't updated in awhile. Life has been crazy!

Things with Brian are slowly, but surely, getting better. We're going to counseling once a week and we're both really trying to make an effort to communicate better. We've come to the realization that communication, and anxiety, are our biggest issues. Brian and I are both strong-willed, hard-headed people. When you get 2 people like that together...my lord, is it a recipe for disaster! Luckily, we realize that we do love each other and we're willing to do what it takes to make this relationship work. I'm praying that we can get over this hurdle.

Things with Evie are better than ever! She's the happiest little baby in the world! No, seriously. I've never seen a happier baby than my baby. Maybe I'm biased (ya think?), but that girl is all smiles all the time and it melts my little heart.

I'm sure you're wondering what the title of this post means. Well...it's pretty literal. We're moving into a house. Insert a "Woo hoo!" here. We're packed to the gills in our townhouse and I'm so tired of having to try and conceal swings, exesaucers, car seats, and much, much more when company comes over. In our new house we'll have, drum roll please, AN ENTIRE ROOM dedicated to the Evie Monster's toys! I cannot wait!

Here's a pic of the house...

Our friends who live in Hawaii, that we visited a few months ago, are renting us the house. The husband was offered a permanent position to stay in Hawaii, and he happily excepted (bastards!) and they immediately thought of us to rent their house. I'm beyond excited! It's a 4 bedroom, 3 bath home, and I cannot wait to acquire every inch of that space.

Now we just have to get our townhouse rented out. Wish me luck!

6 months

It's been 6 months since my little girl made her way into this world. The day that changed my life forever. I never knew how much I could love one tiny little person. A love so strong that, in my the midst of my crumbling world, it's all I need to know in my heart that I will always be ok. I will always be strong for my baby.

This 6 month old has taught me so much about myself in such a short amount of time. I can't wait to see what I learn in the next 5 years. 10 years. 20 years. If 20 years goes by as quickly as the last 6 months...well let's just say, I'm in no rush to get to 42!

Here are the rest of her 6 month portraits. As promised.

I know that's a lot of pics, but I had to AW my little cutie!

Mother's Day

It's so crazy to think that this is my first Mother's Day and Evie will be 6 months old tomorrow!

Brian and I aren't doing very well, but seeing that little girl's face let's me know that everything will work out whether we're together or not.

Brian's mom and I took Evie to get her 6 month portraits done. I'll post them all tomorrow, but here's a little preview...

Strolling down memory lane.

Wanna see what I looked like as a kid?

Life...is hard.

I know I've been MIA for the past week or so, and it makes me sad. I miss my fellow internet addicts mommy bloggers, my tweeps, and my bumpies, but my life isn't going too well right now. Scratch that. My relationship isn't going too well right now.

I'm so mentally exhausted and emotionally drained. I'm just going through the motions of daily life, with the occasional fake smile plastered across my face. Every time I laugh, I feel a twinge of sadness and think, "WHY ARE YOU LAUGHING? Your life is falling apart in front of your eyes, and you're laughing?"

Half of me wants to try to work it out, while the other half screams, "Run!" Which half do I listen to?

We're starting couples counseling on Tuesday. Wish me luck...

Happy Easter!

Wishing you all a happy Easter Sunday!