Monday, January 4, 2010

McFatty Monday

Hello. My name is Jocelyn...and I'm addicted to fast food.

I cannot lie. I do, indeed, have an addiction to fast food. I think it stems from my childhood. My parents divorced when I was 3. My mother was a single mom of two, and worked 12 hour days as a manager at Walmart. By the time she got off work and picked us up from daycare, she was in no mood to cook, and I can't blame her. Every weekend, we would go visit my dad. He would, literally, feed us McDonald's for breakfast, lunch, and dinner. We knew exactly how much the total of two happy meals would be. $4.24. Crazy, huh? $4.24 for TWO meals. It's more than that just for one meal now! Oh, how I miss 1997.

Since I was a child, I had a high metabolism, and I could eat that crap every meal and not gain weight. This changed, however, when I hit puberty. I grew 3 inches, my hips widened, and I was no longer wearing a kids size 12. I was a size 7, 125 lbs, in the middle of 8th grade. I moved in with an aunt and uncle of mine, who were extremely obese, and that just fueled the fast food addiction even more. By time I left my aunt and uncle's, my sophomore year of high school, I was 165 lbs. Not fat, but not skinny. I moved back home and lost 30 lbs. almost instantly. For the first time in a long time, I felt great, but I my diet consisted of salads and water. In my opinion, this is no way to live.

After high school, I decided I was going to eat what I wanted. I put the 30 lbs. back on, plus another 5. I was in college, in a relationship, so who cares about being skinny, right? When I got my surprise BFP, at 170 lbs., I was mortified! I was going to put on, at the minimum, 25-35 lbs! Did this help me make better food choices though? No. I pretty much ate a Quarter Pounder with Cheese and large fries every day. Every 4 weeks, I went to my OB appointments, and I wasn't gaining weight. I thought, "This is great!" I didn't gain any weight until 22 weeks, and luckily, I only put on 20 lbs. total. It still was no picnic to walk around at 190 lbs., but it was better than seeing 200+ on the scale. At 6 days post partum, I lost all the baby weight, plus an additional 10 lbs.

So here I sit at 160 lbs. I want, so desperately, to start eating healthy and to lose another 20 lbs. I have to for my child. I will not have her grow up the same way I did. I cannot feed her a diet that consists of grease and fat!

This brings me to joining McFatty Mondays. Today, my fiance and I, are starting our diet together. We will start eating healthy, no more fast food, and we will be working out. This isn't just about the weight. I really need to figure out and conquer this fast food addiction. Not to mention, we're going to Hawaii in less than 2 months and I'd like to not have to see a hundred pictures of my fat ass in a swim suit and think, "Why didn't I try harder?" I'm so glad Blair started this. It will be nice to have other women around that are going through the same things. Together, I know we can all do this.

Good luck, ladies! I look forward to this weight loss journey with you all.

Here is the most recent picture of myself. Notice the long sweater designed to cover my ass.